wots been going on with me...

Well seems like i've not done this for ages, alot has been going on in my life recently which i've been really up and down about!Theres been so many bad things that have been happening lately which really outweigh the good, and i just feel like everything is getting on top of me and i want to just run away from it all and everyone!
I lost my aunty last friday which was really upsetting, and i felt so sorry for my cousins because how it happened was horrible and you wouldn't wish upon anybody. Isn't it really weird how u sometimes dont think about someone very often if at all, then when there gone and not here no more thats all u can think about, which then gets you down even more because you feel bad that you didnt appreciate them when they were here! Were going upto Dumfries in Scotland on monday for the funeral (which is where my mum and family are from) its going to be really sad but i cant wait to get there to see all my family which i dont get to do that much as there all scattered here, there and everywhere.
Then when i was meant to return to work monday just gone they gave me my notice as i had text in rather than called because i didnt have any credit which really upset and annoyed me. And to top that off they gave me a weeks notice (which id been working 30-35hrs aweek)my notice was only 8hours as they said they had no work for me, which they were advertising in the local job centre for staff to cover 35hrs a week which made me laugh.


On a bit of a brighter note, me and steve got back together a while back which i think is a good thing but theres still a hell of alot things that need changing on both sides! i just want to feel loved and made to feel special, which every girl does, and dont get me wrong he does sometimes but im one of these people that need love to feel happy but he needs to be happy to feel love. It does get me down sometimes but i want him so much that i dont care that things are'nt all sweetness and light at the minute, but were working on it and hopefully we will get there soon.
And were meant to be going to spain over the summer holidays to work for 3 months all been well, which should be fun and is something i've always wanted to do, and the tan will just be an added bonus,lol!!

well im getting bored of typing now so going,lol!