Well me and steve have broke up. Im hoping and praying its not going to be for long but i just dont know. It was my fault ive always been abit paranoid and mistrusting and it has finally pushed him away! I no i shouldnt have been as he had never cheated on me, but sometimes when you get something in your head its kinda hard to get it out again, especially when the circumstances in which we got together were not the best!
I know its no reason not to trust somebody but he works the doors which didnt help matters as far as i was concerned, i always thought of women all over him and trying it on but he promised me even if they did it wouldnt matter he was with me, and now after a year of me hating it and us arguing over it i have actually realsised its true and he was right.
The funny thing is, well not so funny really but anyway, the thing is now ive realised i could have lost him for good, i feel and know in my heart that i can trust him and he would never hurt me like that.
Why is it that they say you dont know what youve got till its gone? i hate this saying, ive decided! Its true though, ive lost the most amazing person in my life and not only that turned him into somebody both of us didnt like and i hate myself for it. And as far as im concerned any woman would be the luckiest woman in the world to have him. I just only wish it was me!
well all that stuff i was ranting on about for valentines as gone out the window,lol!
